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Best Tasting Food Eaten this week...

During my liquid diet I ate (drank) some of the following:

Crystal Light Tea

Pudding

& Jello

As the work wore on I added Saltines, Runny Mashed Potatoes, & Bush's Refried Beans. Nothing tastes so good as saltines and refried beans and mashed potatoes! I can't wait until food is actually food again.

Too much too soon, and no appetite for anything

Too much too soon and not an appetite in site today. Everyone who had the surgery told me I would have zero appetite for a while. Well, I have zero appetite.

My diet today consisted of a liter of water, little sips all day long. Some jello. Little bites all day long. A nexium and a Gas X. God bless the purple pill!

Must run away now. I have a few hours to try and drink some mushroom broth.

Pre-surgery meals

Down twenty pounds on the pre-surgery diet. Ate two cups of jello, one cup of yummy broth (taste shitty, but god love the salt in it), and a couple of gallons of water.

All this water? I really hope they don't have to give me a cathether. A fat man with his hanging out of a hospital gown is bad enough.

Ate a little

Ate a little more today than yesterday. Had some soup, protein pudding, a little piece of salmon, and drank over a gallon of water.

The idea of pigging today wasn't even a passing thought. Gorging got me to weighing 451 three weeks ago. Eating right got me to 441 last week. I will weigh in the afternoon to get a final pre-surgery  weight.

I've felt loved a great deal this past month. The love was there but I am not rejecting it from my family and friends. When I realized I had hit bottom --accepted that I hid bottom with my eating so many areas of my life became more clear. More clear which is not confused with being any easier.

Maybe that's why Overeater Anonymous did not work years ago. I had not suffered enough personal indignities to hit bottom. My respect has grown for those who belong to twelve-step groups. Your inner strength strengthens others.

Daily Diet

Two days before the surgery: As little as possible.